when i was a kid, i had a set of tiny plastic cups that i adored. there were maybe five in total, all painted a drab palette of browns, greens, and purples. they weren’t particularly pretty. but that didn’t matter to me. in my mind, they weren’t just cups. they were bulldozers and dump trucks, space shuttles and warships. sometimes they were kettles filled with a witch’s brew. those dingy things became whatever my imagination desired.
one day, i decided to bring them along to the beach. i remember walking away from my sandcastle construction site for just a moment, and watching in horror as the tide came and went, taking my cups with it. i ran to tell my cousin who tried to sift through the ruins, but it was no use. the cups were gone, lost forever.
the page of chalices represents feelings of innocence and fantasy. they ask us to reunite with and cater to our inner child. they help us remember the part of us that sobbed over some ugly toy cups lost in the ocean. they remind us that child has always been inside of us, crying out to be saved. i like to think of the page of chalices as the moment i’m reunited with those cups. i imagine that this fish has swum, cup in it’s mouth, all the way from that beach in Hawaii. “here you are. i never left.”
this past june, around the same time my first tarot deck, the PrismaVisions deck by James R. Eads that I aptly named Prisma, came in the mail, i had an artist friend of a friend, Eddie Joaquin, paint this photograph of me. it’s a photo i thought i had lost that was taken around the same time i had those tiny cups. i got it painted so i would never lose it again. that kid in the picture? that’s misterwitchboy.
tarot itself has been a kind of reunion with my inner child. not always, but many times, tarot brings things up for me that i thought washed away years ago. it’s a tool for excavating my past, making sense of my present, and choosing a path for the future.
my hope is that with tarot i can help guide you to do the same. whether it’s in a one-on -one reading, or through these tarot newsletter musings, i hope that you’ll join me on this journey of remembering.
from me and my cards,
aaron
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This made me tear up. I’ve been remembering a lot recently. Thanks for helping me put those things into perspective.